“Love is and always was the longing deep inside my heart, to know you, and be known by you.” (All Sons and Daughters)
Their naked heart is the most beautiful thing a person possesses. It is the most tender, most intricate, most real thing about any person and the desire to know and be known so intimately is at the core of who we all are. But there is something so very bold yet undeniably delicate in being known. To be authentic, open, genuine, raw, unmasked and uncovered. It is the most beautiful thing a person can do but it is sometimes also ugly. Not ugly in the way the world views “ugly”, as in unpleasing to look at, but rather, a deeper repelling thing can be discovered that those who see it must chose to love you against those things – they must fight them to remain close. That is why it is so frightening to be known. You must not only recognize and fight against the ugliness of your heart, but also trust that you will be fought for, even after being laid bare, and in that fight, find its beauty.
“O Lord, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.” (Psalm 139:1-3, ESV)
In God we have a love that knows those intricate and unending depths, from the biggest dream to the smallest fear. He created and cultivated each crevice of flesh and soul. Deliberately designing and determining each moment of our lives, he foresees and remembers it all. Nothing is or ever was hidden from his conscious knowledge of us.
“even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love” (Ephesians 1:4, ESV)
And he loves us. Through the cross of Jesus Christ, he looks at us with mercy and kindness and the love of a Father who holds his own child. Such pure and undeserved love has never been replicated and will never elsewhere be found. Knowing all, he chose to set his love on us, irrevocably and unwaveringly. Seeing every piece of the deepest ugliness of our hearts, he fought to the death to not only be close, but to unify himself with us and so not only know but inhabit those hearts.
So consider for a moment your dreams, your desires; consider your fears, your ideas, your insecurities and anxieties. The sovereign God of the universe knows about them all. Each one with the weight and passion and constant consciousness that you feel for them is on his mind right now.
“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all of your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:6-7, ESV)
And he is good. Everything he does is good. Everything he does, knowing you, loving you, being completely sovereign over the whole of time and the entire universe, is good. His plan for you is good. His thoughts for you are good. He is a good Father, a good Shepherd. Babies and sheep are two of the most pathetic beings that come into existence on this earth. They are unbelievably needy. They require so much care and constant attention while giving almost nothing in return. Yet again and again Jesus paints a picture for us of God as a patient Shepherd, a kind Father.
“As for me, I am poor and needy, but the LORD takes thought for me.” (Psalm 40:17a, ESV)
We are so precious to him that though we are as helpless and dependant as a naked baby, he cares for us.
So this is what I am trying to say: Be free. God is good and you are fully known and truly loved by him. He knows your dreams and he loves you. He knows your insecurities and he loves you. He knows every ugly thing that you have put in your heart and he fought beyond the point of death to be close to you.
“Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another.” (2 Corinthians 3:17-18, ESV)
Let this truth free you. “Unveiled” – naked before him, giving no illusion of perfection but wholly acknowledging our ugliness and looking to him to transform us into the beauty he created us for. Set aside your high expectations and personal development plans and be honest and look to him. Set aside your disappointments and your broken plans and look to him. Set aside the worries for your future and the insecurities of your life and look to him. He is doing a good thing in you. He is fighting to be close to you. He is taking care of you as a good Father, watching over you and leading you as a good Shepherd. Humble yourself under his mighty hand and be free there.